STILL sick

So it has been 1 week and 1 day since I got this measley cold...I still feel the same, sound the same. And I dont want to waste $25 on a copay for the MD to tell me that its just a virus and there is nothing that can be done...I will keep that money and buy groceries...

I am thinking maybe Juli and I just keep passing it to eachother because she still has her cold...her ears are hella better, but that damn cough that just hurts...

I have a headache just from coughing...I am tired of it.

Hopefully it is almost ready to leave me for good.

The Litte Gym

Today at 9am we had an intro class at the Little Gym. We just wanted to expose Juli to different things so we figured we would try this.

It took about 10minutes for her to warm up to the idea. But once she was comfortable, she was everywhere...She had to much fun we signed her up for a class every Saturday until January...

Not only did she have fun, her daddy and I did too...we loved seeing her just interact so well to the class, and music, the teacher and other mommies and babies...it was just great.

I am just so glad that we are able to provide Juli with this extra little something to further her development and people skills, just all the good that will come from it.

We just love her so much and want to give her all that we can.

Crappiest Mommy award for today

So I am putting Juli in her carseat so we can be on our way to dropping her off at daycare so I can go to work.

All is fine and dandy until I go to put her straps on...she starts bawling and I chalk it up to her not wanting to be in her carseat...

I am telling her "its alright baby, lets go bye bye". She is still crying...like something is hurting her. So at every light I check to see what it could be.

She cries all the way to daycare... :(

When we get there I give her mortin for her ear ache pain and we walk in her daycare and I see this like 1-inch scratch by her left ear...I am like how and who and what and where did she get that...that is why she has been crying!!!!!!!!! The scratch is red and kind of poofy, but not bleeding or anything.

I just feel so horrible that I could cry...why didnt I catch that and how did it happen? My nails arent sharp enough, her carseat straps are not sharp either...maybe she scratched herself?!

So that is where I am at right now...I feel like a terrible mom because my baby was hurting and all I did was check her out without actually pulling over to make sure she was ok.

Not to mention that when I dropped her off, she started crying bloody murder and was screaming crying for me...

I called her daycare when I got to work ~ all of 7 minutes later ~ and she was fine, playing with her teacher.

So all in all, I have learned that next time, just take a few minutes to pull over ~ examine, comfort and be on our way again.

I hate to be a bother

Sometimes I just want to hear your voice, but you always seem to be in a hurry. I know you are busy, but can you spare a couple of minutes to speak with me?

I know I can be a pain, but I don't like feeling like I don't matter.

In the future, maybe I will just wait for your call...

I guess I really hadn't noticed

That I really am a 16 now...

I say I havent noticed because I still wear my 20's and my 1XL clothes...

I bought a pair of pants and shirt at Ross without trying them on...

So I pull the pants from the bag this morning and look at them like "I don't know"... I am also whispering to my self... "These are too small...they are not going to go over my thighs...wait, ok, they went over...now the real challenge...my behind...hmm they went up and past with no problem...next challenge...buttoning...wow...no fight there either...

So after I put them on, I just stand there kind of in amazement...like ok...wow...hmmm...

Lets try the shirt...a Large...fits like a glove...at this point I am so jazzed...like I cant believe it...

Now to some of ya'll a 16 may still be "size ~ to damn big" but to me...its a great start...next goal is a 14...then so on and so on...my ultimate is at least a 10....so technically I have 3 sizes to go instead of 5 ~ where I started....

Tired of being sick

So I have been feeling like crap since Sunday night and Monday was no better. Not to mention the Juli had a fever, couldn't sleep and kept me up on Monday night. So I was tired, sick and had to be up with her...

Tuesday morning, after being awake most of the night...I wake up at 6:15am...15 minutes until I am supposed to leave the house. I still feel like a dodge ball smacked me right in my nose...my voice sounds like a man and I cant stop coughing. I decide I am not going to work, not only because of me but because Juli still has a fever and she was tugging on her right ear so I knew I had to take her in.

I call Juli's MD at 8am sharp...get an appointment for 9:15 ~ PERFECT!! The MD she saw is not her normal doc, but we have seen her more than her normal doc if you know what I am saying. Any who...she is such an awesome doc...patient with my little diva ~ who just loves being examined ~ doc looks in Juli's right ear and says "oh, that one is busted" WTH!! Then she looks in the other ear and that one is really infected too... so know that I feel like the crappiest mommy out there...needless to say Juli walked away with a list of drugs, 2 stickers, double ear infection...my poor baby...

Although she has all this going on, she is a trooper...yeah, she is hella clingy, but I enjoy those times, because that's all she wants is me...enjoy it while i can type a thing. She still wants to play and be silly with mommy...she likes wrestling with me, letting me tickle her. Its awesome.

So, I will be going to work tomorrow...still stuffy, runny nose, man voice and cough from hell. But i know i can handle it. I just hate seeing my baby sick...

here is to getting better ~ cheers ~

A lot of work...

So I am working on my online store and I must say that it is a lot of behind the scenes work. It is not discouraging me at all, I know I can get it done and I know I will. Its a work in progress, but its progress.

I am so looking forward to putting it online and being open to customers. I never thought in a million years that I would have my own business.

This store is going to be the stepping stone to opening the REAL store I want to open...Sorry, can't divulge any info ~ I don't want it to get stolen from underneath me...

Cheers to dreams and hard work!

Picture day

"I am afraid I dont have good news for you...Juli did not want to have her picture taken" ~ those were the words said to me by Mrs. Debbie ~ Julianna's teacher at daycare. "She just wouldnt let go of me to even try", Debbie continued.

I sort of figured things would go this way, the last 2 or 3 times we have tried having her picture taken...she just flat out refuses.

Her Christmas pictures...she would not smile, and just refused to cooperate...in addition to that, there was a photographer that ~ how do I put this nicely~ that was not "kid friendly looking"...Juli cried just looking at him. Poor guy, but they lost out on our business that day...

We tried for her First Birthday pictures...went to the same studio...hoping that that man was not there...and of course HE WAS... We proceed to coerce Juli into sitting or standing or laying...but nothing worked...she was hanging onto me like her life depended on it...So, again...they lose our business again.

We had Juli, Jacob and Jerika (all my parents grandkids) do a photo together at the mall (image shots)...This time she took the pictures...but did not smile in any of them...we managed to take like 4 good shots ~ and that was it...so thats what we had to choose from ~ 4 shots...

I dont know what or why or how she is afraid of taking pictures...Daddy can take pictures of her no problem...so I guess that is the route we need to take.

I guess I have to look on the bright side of things ~ my husband pointed something out to me ~ Adrianna Lima (Victorias Secret model) hated having her picture taken when she was a baby too and look where she is...she is a famous, beautiful, successful model.

Long Day

Well today was an uneventful day, which I guess isn't a bad thing. 

Juli woke up about 10 minutes after I started bugging her to wake up. She woke in a semi-good mood but of course I had to make some funnies so she would be in a total good mood. I guess I take back that the day was uneventful - as I couldn't find her shoes! And I find them in a place I had already looked... figures...

Dropping Juli off at daycare today was hard on her, or me...she was clinging to me and whining...I wish I could have just gone back home with her and cuddled in bed...I called her daycare like 5 minutes after I left her just to be sure she settled down, and of course she had - she was running with a ball.

Juli has picture day tomorrow, so I need to figure out what she should wear. We'll see how that goes...I also got her a sweater today because it was a bit chilly and her other sweaters no longer fit...I will post pics later...

Work has become so mundane...I dont even look forward to going, but I am thankful I have a job and will continue doing a great job until my real plans fall into place.

I did some more research into my business. Looked at merchant accounts and such, still dont know which direction to go...plus I need the money. Maybe this coming paycheck.

Got my dogs some food and I bought Ali some high calorie junk that is for pups...I need to fatten that boy up! So we will see how that works out.

Right now I am sitting here...tired...watching Eddie update his photography portfolio. He is the bomb diggity! I am so proud...all I can say is "WOW"...

well, its off to bed now...till tomorrow...

So I have been asked...

"And you are not jealous of Eddie shooting Models?"

First off, I trust my husband...always have and always will and that may sound cliche or whatever, but I do. How can you be married to someone you don't trust?

I am not going to sit around wondering what he's up to...wether you are jealous or not, he is going to do what he wants...PERIOD....I am not gonna make myself crazy with wonder, I have way too many other things to worry about.

If there is no trust...then what do you have??